every moment counts...

what now?

2010-03-01T07:14:00.000-08:00

I'm officially done with my degree!! :)

(okay, not really officially..but yea considered since I don't see myself failing Advanced Topic :P)

Before the paper: EXCITED & NERVOUS!

After 12.30pm: ECSTATIC!!

Few hours later: Aimless. Torn.

I feel like a lost little lamb trying to figure out which path to go and where should I go! Yea, I know it's kinda way too fast to be worried about working and all.. but I like predictability. I like to know where's my goal. where am I heading to.

Penang or PJ?
HR or special needs children services?

I want Penang and PJ. I want Penang so that can be with mom, sisters and Kah Wei. But I want PJ so that I can be with my dad. I sure gonna miss him like mad when I'm in Penang. That's for sure. I'm a daddy's girl. :P

God, help me.
Lead me to the path that You want me to pursue.
The path that will lead me in fulfilling Your purpose in my life.
Equip me with wisdom to know what's from You and what's not.
In You, I trust.
Thank You, Jesus.
In Jesus' precious and matchless name I pray,
Amen.

2010-01-19T06:45:00.000-08:00

Have you ever...

.... felt you are so near in reaching your dreams...

... yet so far from fulfilling it?

2009 in a glance

2010-01-04T06:22:00.000-08:00

Review of 2009

January
CRZ's 21st birthday & beginning of new sem - Year 2 Sem 3

February
CNY 2009 with 5% of cousins with mom only

Sun's house-warming..

My first time playing mahjong! *obviously*

Cognition and Perception class..

March
Psychology Dinner 2009

Dinner-BBQ at CRZ's

April
Time-out practice! *with Miss Cheong as the kid! LOL*

May
Kite-flying

Belated Teacher's Day celebration with Miss G! her surprise video!

Chu's birthday!

Network Tea with Employers 2009

Penny Pao's birthday!

Psychology gathering at Kenny Rogers, Sunway Pyramid

June
My 23rd birthday!! *lurves*

Random shopping after random lunch.

EeLin's birthday!

July
Penang-Langkawi trip! :)

August
My first day of internship! *excited*

September
-cant find any pics!- :(

October
Mom's birthday!

November
Children's Camp! *I miss the kids*

Sun, Gloria and Nisha's birthday!

December
Christmas 2009

New Year's Eve at Ian's house! *loved the fireworks*

May 2010 brings happiness, joy and laughters to you guys!
:)

With love,
Rachel Khoo

lazy pig!

2009-12-07T02:06:00.001-08:00

muahahahaha. that was for rachel khoo! her blog is soooo dead till I have to update for her! haha.
No special update actually. she is just so lazieeee. I'm such a good sister. =P

toodles people.

sarahkhooyoongwei signing off.

Mass update. :P

2009-09-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

SORRY FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES! yea.. very very lack of updates. ;)

So, what's going on in my life in Penang? I guess it could be summarised with one word ABUNDANCE!

Let's see:

1) ABUNDANCE in food! goodness gracious me. I think I've gained like what... 3-4kgs. And it's still ever-increasing!
Outcome: At least once a week of 30mins in gym!

2) ABUNDANCE in getting connected to canine. My working place has got 2 dogs. mix-breed. but I have no idea what breed. Forgot to take pics of them too. one day. LOL. Oh and my uncle bought a tshih-tzu! male pup. He called him Whisky. Hahaha.. I love that dog! so cute! I love kacau-ing the pup. but my granda keep saying that I am so rough with the dog. and believe me, everytime she sees me...there she goes again... "Ah Ting ar...ya da ya da ya da..." hehe. even to my cousins! hahaha.
OUTCOME: I also want to buy dog!

KahWei's cousin's toy poodle. Apparently, the poodle 'jumps' instead of run. hehe. how cute. like little lamb. :)

Whisky

3) ABUNDANCE in gaining experiences at the centre I'm working with. both good and bad. really.
Bad: I've experienced mother who was unhappy and say it rudely in front of me. Well, the issue was with the fee and her keep canceling her son's appointment. and so happen I was dealing with the child, so yeapz.. I was the victim! She sort of showed her attitude in front of few parents.
Outcome: Me trying to explain to her and trying to discard the forfeiting of fee for her cancellations at the last minutes and ended up being embarrased! and for a split seconds or maybe minute, I actually doubted myself if I have done anything wrong. But, nope. not me. it's her. Thank God my kind-hearted supervisor is on my side! :)

Good: I have opportunities to conduct (more to like assisting) workshop. So far, I think 3-4 workshops. Some workshops do pay us. But some, nope. So, yea. Depends on the generosity of the person-in-charge who invited us to conduct the workshop. It's fun. Especially when I get to learn from my supervisor! Her ideas of games and how she connects it to the point is eye-opening! :) Not to say it's really WOW. but well, though it's simple..but well, amateur as I am.. I never think of any of the ideas before. haha. :P
Outcome: Tired but satisfied after each workshop. But actually, almost every day I enjoy working. Except for the waking part. hehe.

Tired after work.

English teachers from various schools and kindy in Penang. One of the workshops.
Given one word: caning. and everyone was supposed to continue to form a sentence without seeing the previous person writing his/her word. so, it's kinda surprising that each teacher above can connect and form a really meaningful sentence. The rest were pretty here and there. Not a very meaningful ones.

4) ABUNDANCE in hair? erm.. artificial I would say. haha. cos I permed my hair to make it more volumized. :) but my personal hairdresser said my hair condition improving. ALOT! woo hoo! PRAISE GOD! :) hopefully I'll get used to the new hair!
Outcome: It costs me a BOMB to perm it. at least I think so. Some people think it's okay. Some think it's cheap. And of course, others think it's expensive. well, no regrets. never try, never know!

Pictures above is on the day I permed. So, probably by now, I won't look as nice. haha.

In August, I went to church family camp with KahWei and family in Kampar on somewhere end of the month. First time been to family camp. Experience was amazing. enjoyed myself.

Picture taken during the free time. We went to the waterfall which can be seen from the North-South Highway. Really nice! :) (notice I'm gaining weight?)

Last but not least, I will be going down to KL on Sunday from Pahang. So, dinner together guys!!! :) SO looking forward to it!! Friday gonna go to Pahang for wedding. The real day is on Saturday. Then Sunday off to KL! I MISS EVERYONE OF YOU!!!

Truthfully, I miss our classes! :(

before i leave, take a last look at my straight hair cos the next time you see me... my hair is no longer straight but wavy :)

See you guys in few days time!

With lots of love,
Rachel K.

Week 2 Internship

2009-08-23T03:09:00.000-07:00

Went to attend workshop in Penang GH. 2 days Family Therapy Workshop. first day was by Dr Lai Fong Hwa then on the second day was Dr Barry Mason. Overall, it was good as i learn more about counselling stuff. how to ask ques and etc.

Want to tell more but kinda bad mood now. wait till when i free i shall tell more

and sunn!! where are you? i need to tok to you. desperately!! i m very frustrated! i need to tok to u! sobs! wish i am back in kl now. :(

1st week of internship

2009-08-13T05:02:00.001-07:00

Just started my internship this week..first week already busy! most of the nights..reached home, kinda tired but kinda fun also lah. cos get to attend to children! :) Let's see..

Monday: First day of work.
Nothing much as every Mondays are meeting days and also to finish up reports for the children. So, Monday nothing much. Was greeted by two dogs in our centre. Kinda scary at the beginning because they bark bark like those dogs that can "rest" their teeth on you!Anyhow, now they are my friends! hehe. So back to Monday, I attended meeting, the other interns (UTAR students who started in March or May) brought me around the centre and introduce the assessments that we use in the centre. One of those mostly used are CTONI IQ test, PEP-R, Carolina test. Yupz. All so new to me. So, in the end, spent my Monday morning reading the manual of those tests. :) My lunch time is with the rest of the colleagues in the centre itself. They cook there. :) Around 11am to 12pm, some of them will start cooking! home-cooked food! nice nice! save $$! hehe.

Tuesday:
Tagged along my colleagues when they attend to the child. So that I can learn about how they do things there and etc. Lots to learn. Kinda interesting! Get to see lots of different children! Went back home tired. :)

Wednesday:
Still tagged along my colleagues when they attend to the children. Had a chance to administer to some of the children. DS and autistic. oh as well as ADHD! oh-my-gracious-goodness-me!! now you guys know where my energy was contributed to. Met one DS kid with hole in the heart. such a pity. Some of the kids are actually very pretty and cute. Sometimes, I feel kinda sad to see kids in those conditions! Oh.. and when I went back yesterday... I wore the wrong slippers as I was wearing house slippers.. so I ma go change slipper. I did not lock the door. I just closed it. BUT lo and behold, the dogs (Diamond and 2-way) ran away! Goodness! I was super-panicked! nd i felt very bad! very very bad! i cant even sleep at night! every time I think of dogs sigh.

Thursday:
The moment my mom turned into the road to my centre... I asked my mom to check whether can she see the dogs there! cos I didn't have the courage to check! When my mom said yes it is there... I did not believe! When i turned and checked... wow. my heart jumps! cos i was so scared if the dogs are not back then i donno how to explain to my supervisor! hehe. Apparently, my colleague who was there on Wednesday told me that she stayed till 6something for the dogs to come back home! haha. Today, I had fun doing things! hehe. see kids and etc.

Friday: (tomoro)
Going to Bukit Mertajam to see the children there. We have a centre there too. to cater to those who stays at the mainland. COme to think of it.. alot of people there too. our waiting list is quite long. and we have 400++ active cases with only 8full timers and 3interns! imagine that! its sort of like back to back work. But it's all worth it!!

Saturday.. we going to one of the schools to have workshops with kindy teachers! We are going to teach them about ADHD and ASD. Theory of mind, play and etc.

Sunday..another workshop in Disted. busy busy. this one is a full day thing. hehe.

Alot of workshops ahead! one in August 28 2009 but i couldnt make it. as i have family camp to attend to. first time i attending family camp. well, the family camp i am not attending with my family..but instead with kahwei's family! :)

Okay. so till here lah. will update more! but actually i have lots in my mind before i online. but once i face my new post thing... i lose the track! haha. soo toodles!

Double Rs - Regrets and Rejected

2009-08-02T18:28:00.000-07:00

Regrets are no longer a stranger to me.

I know I have to learn to suck it up and just head forward. but sometimes it's easier said than done. how i wish i can start everything afresh! undo the things i did or undo the decisions i made...sobs. Some decisions lead me to rejection. sigh. I feel so useless! hopeless! value-less. whatever-less that can think of...that's exactly how i feel right now at this moment!

thesis! why, oh, why did i choose IO? it's so freaking hard to find participants! i never felt so rejected in my whole life! i emailed a number of banks and companies for permission to distribute my survey..but most of them choose to remain silent! whereas some emailed back saying they are regret to inform me that..... = NO SURVEY PLEASE. never experienced so many no-s in my life. :'(

my life is so miserable with thesis! coupled with mj's you are not alone song and argument with him.. makes it even worse! combo deal. sigh.

arguments are not strange to me too. i guess the longer we are in a relationship, we tend to be complacent and take things lightly. there's no longer effort. or should i say same effort like it used to be. I know that someone wont read this blog, well, he never did care about what i said or feel. okay, maybe he DID. note that past tense. we no longer see each other as much as we used to. i wasnt used to it at the beginning. but because u said we no longer are teenagers... we dont have to meet each other so often since you have work cmmitment and stuff.. so fine. i accept it and learn to not expecting to see you every day. but now?? even sunday also calculate? sigh. i am beginning to think what you want in your relationship? since calculate till like that, i might as well work in kl after i graduate. less arguments + less expectations + less stress = both party happy.

maybe it's the hormone and the song that makes me feel so emo right now. and thus, the above paragraph appears.

whatever will be, will be.

i'm outta here.

Masak-masak Day

2009-07-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

Today can be considered well-spent. :) quality time with my kelly.

Morning, settle some stuff with parents. tmnet stuff and their stuff.

Noon, after fetched her back from kindy, we spent time making card for her mom! birthday card! her tasks: write the alphabets, glue the alphabets and heart-shaped paper. my task: cut paper and tell her what to write. How cute. she was so excited when she gave the card to her mom. hehe.. then after the card-making session, guess what i did! yea like the title of this post,... masak masak. haha. she became my maid for the day. she keep asking me what i wanna drink and serve me with the miniature cups and pot and fake bread. she even taught me how to butter my bread. fake bread. haha. i realized her vocab improved alot! like really alot! so cute.

Sigh. sadly, the penang-langkawi trip not everyone attends. sorry to say, but i was kinda letdown. sigh. i really look forward for a trip with EVERYONE. i guess this is life. nothing will go according to plans. ugh. i'm not gonna plan for any trips de after this. cos when i plan things, i really look forward for it especially when everyone sounds so promising and enthusiastic about the trip. but in the end.. sigh. Nevermind. lesson learnt: expectations lead to disappointment at times.

Whatever...

p.s: the later paragraph in this post is not directed to anyone. it's just my ramblings. and my feelings.

Bittersweet Penang

2009-07-19T04:58:00.000-07:00

I AM HOME!

Departed KL at about 9something and reach Penang about 12-1pm. Sigh. What a bittersweet journey. Excited yet heavyhearted and sad. Sigh.

Anyway, I know there's gonna be a lot of things I gonna learn hands-on throughout this internship period. I am still worrying about my thesis thing. Sigh sigh sigh.

I need fun! lots n lots of fun!! before internship begins and reports and thesis! sigh. BUT here am I, home, in pyjamas.. doing nothing. except onlining. And its Sunday night!

why oh why my life before, during and after exam is the same! :( where's all the excitement? dont tell me my life excitement is only my studies. the journals. the textbooks. :(

Anyway, Friday night was spent in KahWei's house with his family. Played around with his Macbook's webcam and its effects. Had a really tummy-aching laughs. But cannot show here lah. I don't have it here with me. So, maybe when I have the pics de... will put some up here. Really very seriously funny!!

Saturday morning nothing much. Had breakfast with his family, went to Lunas to find my grandparents for lunch, dinner in my house! we had steamboat! ugh. how am I gonna survive this!??! i sure will gain weight again!!!!!! oh nooooooooo.... all my efforts... sigh. I CAN DO IT! I CAN RESIST ALL TEMPTATIONS! I CAN I CAN! :S

Sunday, church as usual. Went to CEntral zone, the speaker was good! shared testimonies about his life. how his son was kidnapped in 2004 and how God saved him within the short span of 15minutes after the kidnap. He indeed is a leader with charisma! He also shared with us why he jumped the boat from one party to the other.. Yupz. He is none other than ex Minister of Health, Dato Chua Jui Meng. *i hope i spelt correctly* His testimonies about himself and family really stirred something in my heart that "hey! God is great! He is faithful and miracles do happen! as long as I have the faith!" After church, went to have lunch with his family, then he dropped me to Gurney.. and I walked alone. He went for his badminton :( leaving me alone in Gurney while waiting for my sis to finish her piano lesson nearby. Well, i had fun alone. i walked around, tried some clothes on, and in the end, went to MPH and grab a novel to read! GOSH i miss reading novels! especially biographies! so gonna go get novels!!! :)

So yeaps. that's my first few days in Penang! And I miss you guys already! I guess the more I think about how infrequent I gonna see you guys and spend time with you guys... the more I feel the pinch :( Cant imagine how i gonna feel next year! surely worse than this... :(

But for now, I gonna be here and now person. Treasure every moment cos every moment counts! *sounds familiar rite?*

2009-07-15T19:15:00.000-07:00

I can't sleep!

I'm scared of not being able to collect 320 questionnaires for my thesis!! shux..

How?

Any salesperson out there? sobs.. I need your help! or any of your friends belong to that category?? help!

Penny-auction??

2009-07-14T23:45:00.000-07:00

Pao~~~ :)

Post-Exam Stress

2009-07-14T23:15:00.000-07:00

Weird huh? Usually stress is due to exam now that the exam has ended... I still have stress!

The stress is that I have to pack my stuff!!! *ugh* and also the stress due to nothing to do at online!!! Before the exam or during the exam, I have so things to do online, from facebook to other people's blogs. Now, donno where to go!! donno what to do online!!! *oh man*

I ended up playing around with photoscape. my new found hobby. actually not that new anymore..all this while i memang like to play with this kinda thing. So yeaps. whole day in front of computer doing photoscape stuff. Lunch is a headache for me! till now, 2.20pm i have yet to have my lunch! i dont know what to eat. and the thought of packing up is making me sooooo lazy and wanna just sleep again!! arghh.. this is so stressful!!! goshhh!!!

i think i should just buy new clothes in penang, then i don have to pack whenever i go back penang. or maybe i should just buy two sets of clothes. one in puchong, one in penang. then, it saves me all the trouble to pack!! to think what to pack.. and saves me from the stress of packing and unpacking!!!

speaking of unpacking! i dislike it too!! ugh. ugh. ugh.

back to reality*
I have to pack pack pack now! including dapao-ing my 19-inch desktop, but that one shall wait until thursday!! if not, i will grow fungus, sitting at home with no astro! I gonna go coook my lunch now. which i have no idea what i want to eat or should i say what is left in the fridge~ i guess it will be.... IBUMIE MEE GORENG here i come!! with telor sunny-side up! :)

What's next?

2009-07-13T22:49:00.000-07:00

I've finally finished Year 3 semester 1! Another ONE internship, ONE thesis and ONE paper to go.. and that's it! That's my whole 3-years Psychology degree in Sunway University College, PJ!!

Going back to Penang this Friday, and I am having mix feelings. Partly, I am excited to go back Penang and start my internship in 2-way centre and also being with my family and KahWei. Both of us are really looking forward to it, as this will be our moment to spend time together after so long being apart (minus the occasional to and fro KL-PG trip).

On the other hand, I am kinda sad and reluctant to leave my dad in PJ and also my friends. I am gonna miss the times we had in class, lunch time, and hanging out. :( I guess SOON we all gonna be entering into our next chapter of life. Like in few months time. Approximately 8 months time. Ugh. I am sooo gonna MISS my time in Sunway with the psychos and of course, the lecturers and their antiques.

Yesterday's Ampsquare session really brought back so much memories of the past! You know that kind of feelings when you listen to those songs such as Wannabe, I want it that way, Who do you think you are and etc. Yupz. That era. The Spice-Girls and BSB era. Wow. those were the days man! those were the days..my upper primary days! Whoaaa!! I enjoyed that moment! As we sang those songs, the scenes from my Standard 6 era which was like 9-11 years ago keep appearing!! not literally but in my mind lah..*duh*. :( I miss those times! those carefree and jovial time! After the AmpSquare trip, we went to Lookout Point in somewhere near Ampang. Apparently a tourist place. Nothing much though, just the scenery and the friends! and of course, the only 4 restaurants there. Yesterday's trip to Lookout Point wasn't farewell dinner for all of us before our internship! To me, it's our post-exam party. Although I am the only one who is going back to hometown for internship, I will try my very best to come back during the weekends so that we can hang out again. JUST MAKE SURE YOU GUYS HAVE TIME FOR ME!! :)

I AM SO GONNA MISS YOU GUYS! Oh, and I am looking forward for our trip to Langkawi! We so gonna have lots of fun there as well as Penang.